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exposed to my bones

Today’s draw is the priestess of cups turned right from Motherpeace tarot by Karen Vogel and Vicki Noble

I am beyond exhausted today– I didn’t do this draw until after my work day– because I didn’t feel capable of doing it before right now. What I read when I drew this card was: “You are called upon to be a loving master of emotional integrity.”

I hope that’s what I’m doing by taking care of myself. I feel as I move through this process of writing two blog posts a day amidst counting down to my wedding (that i’m writing about)– what’s beginning to happen out of necessity is I’m stripping bare. I am unable to hold the space for any pretense or mirage (not that I’m someone with much of that anyway). But, I really feel like I’m exposed to my bones, and it’s incredibly liberating.

I have no idea how many views my posts have today– because it’s too much energy to expend to look. I’ve got to handle the basics here, take care of myself, sleep, eat, see my clients (some of them) and write. I’m doing this for myself. I must not deplete myself for myself. This process must be nourishing. What Karen Vogel says about this card turned right as it was when I drew it is: “She feels a pull to go in a particular direction in her inner world. She needs to be sure she wants to go there.”

I am pulled inside. I will retreat to that space and feel no guilt in going there. I have not written masterful words, I have stayed true to myself and accomplished the task I set forth. The watery cups continue to be my mainstay. I will settle into the emotions and divine feminine that they ask me to acknowledge with gratitude.

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