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Actively Becoming Myself

Today’s draw is the Greek Goddess Psyche from Goddess Knowledge Cards painted by Susan Eleanor Boulet and written by Michael Babcock.

This powerful image of Psyche holds the promise of new life– shrouded and nestled with birds and holding an egg. Psyche (whom I had never heard of before drawing this card) was first mortal then given immortality after wedding Eros, the Greek God of love. She is said to exemplify a woman’s quest for personal growth– affirming that every piece of our path is important, the dark as well as light.

When I connect to this card and this image of Psyche I feel nestled. It follows the same theme (funny thing about that) of creating and rooting into a home, or nest. In the week before my wedding, three times I saw crows flying above me with branches in their mouths, building. I feel clearly that the space I am occupying in my life is one of building. I am acknowledging my massive root system, which is co-mingling with the massive root system of my husband. (As I write this, he sits next to me writing).

I am building my home. I am building my family. I am building my business. I am building my life. As I move back into and begin to occupy these spaces after the massive ceremonial acknowledgement I feel a protection and assurance that did not exist before. I am whole in a new way. I am actively becoming more and more myself with each passing day.

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Moved by the Movement

Today’s draw is Red Coral– Feminine — First Chakra — Fire — from Shaman Wisdom Deck created by Leita Richesson

I transitioned back into my life today. I went to work. I had a strange sense of time through my first two hours working– it seemed to stretch further and take up more space than usual. By my third hour of work I had more of a handle on it– and it felt as though it were passing more normally. It felt good to be back, but a large part of me understands completely why the honeymoon is a tradition immediately following the wedding. There is a strange and beautiful existence we’re sharing right now that feels removed from all else. Entering back into the real world today threatened to shift that existence (though the threats were empty– the magic still remains).

This red coral draw speaks to me again of rooting, just as the tobacco from the same deck did two days ago. It is associated with the root chakra and makes me immediately think of my home which is begging me and my new husband to settle in. We are still amidst chaos from the wedding and the space is begging us to cleanse it of the chaos and root into a newly created calm. I will find my new rhythm, and it seems clear that the rhythm will begin with my root, as we create this new paradigm together

The coral strikes me as a perfect balance between fire and water. It is associated with the element of fire, yet it is surrounded by water– and it is the only thing in the ocean that comes to mind that is not swayed by water. Most things, whether animate or inanimate are moved by the movement of water. Coral is not. It is rooted and stands immovable against the constant ebb and flow of the tides. It is a constant, stable element in the ocean– all things move and flow around it. As I begin this life anew with my husband I will endeavor to allow my new, constructive habits and patterns (i.e. daily meditation and writing) to be as the red coral– rooted and fixed, which all else will easily flow around.

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Waiting to be put into play

 

Today’s draw is Center from The Sacred Journey Cards by Cheryl Thiele.

To be reminded to center after the chaos that has been my last week is welcomed. Though undoubtedly I’ve had some sense of center amidst all of the activity– it has not necessarily had any quiet or calmness accompanying it. Today is a day that feels like it is tottering between old and new. It stands between the craziness that was my wedding and the calm that is my new married life.

Tomorrow I return in earnest to my life outside the four walls of my home. I meet my old world with what now feels new. I’m spending the day with the windows open, breathing in the fresh Spring air, caring for my convalescing husband. I’m drawing together all of the parts that have been spread apart. I’m beginning to create a new framework in our home that reflects our union.

For months there have been parts and pieces laying around our home gathering dust– waiting to be put into play. It feels like those pieces are now being called upon. It is time to hang new pictures, and carry out the old relics, strip away the old and make way for what is new. I will do this from a place of quiet calm. I will do this from my Center.

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Time to Forge Forward

Today’s draw is Tobacco 31 Masculine — East — Mars — Earth from Shaman Wisdom Cards created by Leita Richesson

Having taken a few days off from my daily draw– this feels like an appropriate card to bring me back. Tobacco is a ceremonial plant in almost all native cultures and symbolizes purification and healing. Having just moved perhaps the most massive ceremonial acknowledgement of my life to date (my second marriage) this card speaks to me on several different levels.

When I connect to it in meditation– I have clear and immediate visions of a massive root system running underneath the plants. Tobacco is traditionally farmed and has been for centuries. I see the vast network of roots creating a grid structure underneath the soil that feels calming and settling. As I sit with this card, behind me, just outside the window illuminated in sunlight is my husband practicing tai chi in our backyard– his careful, measured steps held by an unseen force.

As we settle into our life as husband and wife I appreciate the masculine drive of the tobacco, reminding me that once again it is time to forge forward in this new paradigm– more powerful in our united front. I also appreciate the vast, wide-spread system of roots assuring each foot fall is supported and sure.

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Straddling the Human and Spirit Worlds

Today’s draw is Fox from Animal Spirits Knowledge Cards by Susan Seddon Boulet.

Fox is said to come to you during times of change, which is certainly appropriate for the massive life event that is coming just four days from now. (my wedding). Again, just as in yesterday’s draw there is a full moon illuminating the fox and a supernatural feel to the painting. Fox is said to be a mediator between the human and spirit worlds. I spent last night, as well as many other nights in the last couple of weeks straddling the human and spirit worlds in my dreams, waking with visions that only my dreaming mind can make sense of.

The massiveness of this transition I am moving through feels like it is being accompanied by a spiritual acknowledgement and awakening as well. As we allow our partnership to be brought out into the light and witnessed by the world, there are other aspects of us, often under the surface, that are allowed to be seen as well. I am a healer, and a witchy, witchy woman. I don’t always present my witch to the world, though most people who know me at all know that she’s always right underneath the surface. The appearance of fox today feels like an assurance. She helps me feel confident in owning the ceremony that is the next several days of my life. I am preparing myself for what is next. There is no need to hide my witch. She knows exactly how to move me forward.

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At the root of my being…

Today’s draw is Tiger from Animal Spirits Knowledge Cards by Susan Seddon Boulet.

Tiger is my first love of the big cats. If you read my post a few days ago when I drew Lion, you know that from where I sit at the moment there are seven tigers in view– make that eight, nope, nine– just looked down at my phone case to my right and then a pillow just to the left of me. It’s safe to say Tiger has got me covered. And that’s exactly how Tiger makes me feel. She’s got my back. She first came to me several years ago when my healer took me on a shamanic journey and she showed up as my guide. Since then I have connected more and more with the energy of power and perception that Tiger brings.

She’s a symbol of prosperity for me, because she reminds me of my own power and the fact that I am my most potent and powerful resource. This particular painting of her feels potent in terms of perception. She is framed in an eye that is made up of eyes, illuminated by the full moon. Her power is regal and inscrutable. It is without question but enigmatic. Her appearing today is a godsend– as my brain spins out in twenty different directions. She connects me to my center and the earth. She is a welcome reminder that I am taken care of at the root of my being.

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Calm and Relaxation at my center

Today’s draw is the hermit from Spiritsong Tarot by Paulina Cassidy. 

Number 9 is my favorite number, and a hermit is what I would desperately like to be at the moment. It speaks of moving away from the distractions of the world and into a personal solitude. I feel the call of the koala and know that my looming deadline makes the idea of solitude sound like an impossibility. However, I appreciate the appearance of koala and feel that despite the “stress” I may be in the midst of– koala reminds me that despite the external chaos and distraction, I am still able to access calm and relaxation at my center.

For that I am truly grateful.

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I am where I am and it is what it is

Today’s draw is the reversed hanged one from Motherpeace tarot by Karen Vogel and Vicki Nobel. 

This card feels incredibly etheric to me. There are halos or energy fields emanating from the base of the trees as well as the head and shoulders of the female figure. What I read of it speaks of being caught up in an external process, which is certainly true. I’m so caught in that process I’m having a hard time sitting with this card. I am where I am and it is what it is.

I’m right side up hanging from my ankle by a snake. Somehow what I get when I sit with this image is exuberance. I’ll take it.

 

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my POWERFUL SELF

Today’s draw is from Animal Spirits Knowledge Cards with paintings by Susan Seddon Boulet.

This brilliant lion greeted me for my draw bright and early this morning. As I was falling asleep last night I had the sense that today I would be drawing from this deck. Yesterday I had a session with my healer. Towards the end of my session he acknowledged all of my guides commenting “it’s like a zoo in here.” I had to smile in agreement. My connection with nature is resonant– and nature has been showing up in full force as of late to let me know its got my back.

I have always loved cats. As I began writing this my sweet girl kitty came up and sat down right next to me. A couple of years ago I did a guided journey with my healer and Tiger showed up to be with me and walk alongside me through the journey, at times taking me on her back. She presented herself to me as a powerful ally and thus began what could be called my tiger obsession.

It’s not hard to contextualize what I’m talking about when I refer to my tiger obsession if you’ve walked into my home. From the place where I’m sitting right now in my living room I can see six different tigers without moving a muscle, and I happen to know additionally there’s a tiger as well as a lion on the pillow that the small of my back is resting on. So… yeah, I’ve got a thing for big cats. Jaguars, leopards, and this beautiful powerful sunlit lion whose image sits before me.

Lions symbolize strength, power and courage. They are often associated with the sun. I love the gentle ease of this powerful protector. The presence of lion in my draw today is comforting. He helps keep me feeling grounded and taken care of. My lessons of late are very much centered around claiming and owning my power. Each step I take towards owning that in every situation I have a choice to make, helps me step more solidly into my power. Lion’s presence affirms those clear and conscious forward steps into ownership of my POWERFUL SELF.

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Eye on the Target

Today’s draw is the son of discs from Motherpeace tarot by Karen Vogel and Vicki Noble.

Wow. I just actually sat for a moment with this image and was STRUCK by how brilliantly it portrays my life right now. It is the perfect metaphor for my wedding and the focus I have on the target, just nine days away. I am struck by the meticulous clarity with which he aims and focuses. There is no doubt in his being that he will hit the center of his target with surety and perfection.

He is surrounded by and supported by nature, the robin, dragonfly and the forest. He is harmonious in his forward momentum. Time in its insanely non-linear fashion is playing with me these days– but I have a slow and steady “eye on the prize” mentality that keeps things in perspective and helps me to understand that this final stretch before the wedding will be insanely short and immensely long at the same time. I am exhausted and exuberant, overwhelmed and accomplished.

I am ready and steady and I’ve got my eye on the target nine days from now and I know with certainty there’s no way for me to miss it.